The reason I haven’t been on much anymore is beacuse I gots me a boyfriend :D and I love him SOOOO much.
He is the most amazing thing to ever happen in my life :) He is the only one that gets me… understands me, and excepts me for who I am and was.
I still remember the first day that he talked to me… hehehe… he never really liked me much lolz. And we never really talked alot becasue he wasnt to fond of me at the time, he thought I was bipolar and stuff XD
I also remember the day when he saved my life…. I was going to kill myself becasue of a boy I lost… who I thought was the one, then boy that broke my heart worse then all the others did, really didnt care about me at all… he throw me away like I was nothing.. I felt like I was nothing and I was ready to end it all… end love.. life.. I was ready to give up completely. I had many guys break my heart.. but what ________ did hurt me the most, he acted like he didn’t care AT ALL.. so I planed the day I would die, had it ready, and I wasnt turning back (or so I thought).It was the day I was goign to hang myself, I was on Kongregate saying good bye to all my friends, telling them how much I would miss them and stuff… then… He logged on.. went to the chat that I was on… and.. gave me a speech… on why I should live, I wasnt in the mood to talk to anyone at that time.. I just wanted to die and end it… but.. It was somthing that Anthony said that made me feel like he really did care, that my life was worth living, that I would find the one to fix my heart, and I never thought he would be the one to do so … that day was a grace from God. Anthony was there at the right time, place and day… To save me.
And after that I said I wasn’t going to end me for good, I gave him my Gmail so I could keep talking to him, we texted through that for a while, then I stared missing him alot hehe (thats when I started liking him). So I started stealing my moms cell and texting like that for about 2 or 3 weeks maybe, then I remember one night…. I was taking my moms cell.. and I got caught. My heart was beatin a mile a minute, I was so scared I was never going to be able to talk to that boy ever agian.. then I did something I would never thought I would ever do… I told my mom the truth O_O (lolz).. yeah, I told her about Anthony and everything, bout me sneaking on her compy, stealing her phone and talking to a boy I never met irl :p… she was not to happy bout that but, but when I told her the truth I think she gave me her trust and she gave me her cell for 5 minutes, so I ran up stairs to call Anthony. Crying, I told him everything that happened. And the first thing he said was something I’ll never forget, he said “Will I ever be able to talk to you agian?”….. Thats when I told myself, I was going to fight for this boy, HE was going to be mine one day.
And I was there for him the night when his Girlfriend broke up with him (im not saying who).
I was there to help him throw it, and thank God I was. Because he and I ended up going out right after that happened. Funny how things turn out in amazing ways like that. But honestly I thought for a little after he said we were together… I thougth I was a replacement for his ex… but he proved me wrong and he gave me his love :).
Me and Anthony have been throw so much together, break ups, make ups, sadness, happiness, depresstion, worry, anger, tears, joy, fights, sleepless night.
And we always make it throw em all. Cause our love is strong. The strongest love I ever felt :) and still feel.
I plan on shareing my life with this man, I plan on having kids and being happy with him for the rest of my life. He has given me alot… the months Ive known him… But the greatest thing he has given me is his heart :) its the greatest gift anyone has ever given to me… and I promise Anthony.. .I’ll take care of your heart forever and always. I’ll be here for you forever and always. Because I love you so much.
Me and Anthony’s Song
When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I’ll be your strength,
I’ll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it’s gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..
And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
I’ve loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never…
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we’ve won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun…
Just close your eyes
Each loving day
I know this feeling won’t go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..
Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn’t be living at all…
And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby
Just close your eyes
Each loving day
I know this feeling won’t go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you…
URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e3pzIzlcCMs
I love you Anthony… I can’t say that enough….
