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StarlandAI

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    Nov. 30, 2011
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    18

I am writing this here because I do not have word installed on my computer, which means I can’t lock anything I write and save on my computer, so I think this is the best option. Hello, my name is Joseph. Though, I am not really Joseph. I have never really been Joseph, the closest you see me coming to Joseph in the public eye is what I write here. I spend about 7 hours a day on my computer on week days and about 12 on weekends. I live in a village, isolated from the outside world, and there is nobody my age here. Just 50 year olds and stuff. I have a sister, but there is a huge age gap between us and she has never really done anything with me that I consider fun. I hate talking. I wish I could just listen and never have to say anything back, but for some reason, in this world, everyone expects an answer. I have never properly lived in the real world. I believe I have spent more time in the virtual world than the real world (if you don’t include sleep anyway). By the way, I don’t really like Kongregate anymore, I am just using it as a tool to express my feelings. I have no way to express my feelings apart from this, and I have no idea why. I have nobody to talk to, even though I have a loving family and whatnot, for some reason I can’t talk to them. Perhaps it is because my Dad is overprotective and when he caught me crying for no reason one time, he repeatedly asked if I was okay. I find it annoying. I don’t want to answer. Also, my Mum just tells everyone what happens to me on the phone, which I hate even more. I don’t understand anybody I know, and nobody knows the real me. I am not Joseph in the real world, but I am Joseph now. I want to stare at the stars and cry all night but if I did that, that would just draw attention, so instead I stare through a blurred-out window at the one or two stars that I can see and cry silently under my covers. However, I do not know why I do this. Perhaps it is love, even though I do not have feelings for anybody currently, as I do not understand anyone. Not that anyone would want to be with me though. I know you probably think I am weird after reading all this, but I am currently crying silently in my room whilst typing. Anyway, if anyone reads this, hello.

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