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I tried, and tried again.. And my feelings can’t be expressed in words.. So if I could paint you a picture of what I feel from what I did, it would be just a black canvas… My eyes have been opened for now, your words I just found.. Your song is lovely.. It made me cry… If you could see me now, maybe you could understand that I truly, to the deepest part of me I am sorry. And I would, I would try my hardest, and devote my whole life to change the past if there was just the smallest glimpse of possibility. And I know that won’t happen.. But just know that the rest of my life will be to better myself, because what I did to you is unforgivable. I’d kill myself but it wouldn’t change a thing. I hurt you, I destroyed a future that could have been, I ruined a love that was stronger than steel, and now I’m here, alone with no love from anyone. I’m right where I should be, so I hope that your life is only getting better, I hope you have found the perfect dream for your life because that’s what you deserve, only the most perfect life there could be.
I don’t know what else to put.. You may never even see this.. But if you do..

I love you Bethany, you meant the world to me, just know that I will always have you in my heart as close to my thoughts as I can. I’m trudging through the days, with your name in my head, the pain that I put you through is now my only feelings that I can express. Don’t cry if you see this, smile and move on, don’t let this bring you down cause this is my fate. I want you to live on and have a perfect life.

Goodbye<3