xBlueRoseX

WARNING: this profile is quite a read.Super long. so if you don’t like reading….you might want to think about going on. You’ve been warned.

Hi all,

earlier on I made a depressing profile. Then one about how I feel at the moment. I’m tired of being depressed and changing my profile every time I feel a different way…so I’m just going to put it all out there:

First off my gender. That’s for you to determine….I don’t really care if people think I’m a boy or girl… as in sometimes I feel more like a boy and sometimes I feel more like a girl sometimes I fell like both…other times I don’t really know….. So,if you think I’m a boy cool..if you think I’m a girl…alright. whatever you want to call me…go for it. though, I am pansexual which basically means I like all genders. Males, female, trans, whatever…I love personality more than anything…..I have a strange thing for guys with boobs though lol…..weird but I am weird so…

Secondly, I have an issue with losing people…..it’s a long story that I don’t to tell if asked. losing people…especially those close to me….is a challenge for me. I can’t take it…I hate losing people.

Thirdly, I have a husband. We love each other dearly and trust each other even more….we were married at a very young age and have been together for a long time…(I lost count…he’d kill me if he knew Edit: we’ve been together for 5 years. dated for 3 been married for 2.)
Though are realationship is very opened…so flirting with others isn’t frowned upon in our relationship….we actually like seeing each other flirt with others. This is the trust we have in this marriage.

More: I’ve had a hard life and have made a lot of mistakes….My age on here is..kindof off but the reason it is like that is because…well..I was married at a VERY young age…..I have this age on here in order to protect the one I love…he did not want people knowing our ages because he was afraid of judgement. I will do anything to protect him…and at that time lying about my age was to protect him…don’t believe me? Your choice. Want to know my real age? Ask. Also, I can give a fuck less about being judged, been there done that…..I Don’t care anymore…judge if you will I will be as I am regardless of your opinions.

I’ve made mistakes. I’ve done some stupid things. I’ve fucked up. I’ve been fucked over. I’ve been hurt. I have hurt. I’m no where NEAR perfect…Unfortunately, I am only human.

Little things:
I am from England but now live in Minnesota for…reasons. I have long hair..it goes to about my knees..my husband calls it my “unicorn” hair. I love having it colored…I like rock, indie,SOME rap, dubstep, heavy metal, old school rock and roll, celtic music etc. My favorite food is strawberries. My favorite things to do are: Spend time with my lover, draw, write, read, watch porn, eat, sleep, listen to music, and play with my pure white wolf dog: Suki. (I love my puppy). My favorite animals are…you guessed it, Wolves and also I love blue roses (hence the name)…I like to cook…I like to wear frilly dresses and tuxedos….I have a few tats…..I have electric blue eyes…I play guitar, flute and piano. I like to dance, I like to write songs, I like to sing songs….I am about 6’0……umm…and…..I care for personality more than looks..Oh…and I’m a furry ( I like my anthros)….
Did I mention my intense love for strawberries?

So that’s that…..if you want to know more about me, feel free to ask.
P.S: Just a note…..I do not like talkin about my parents nor do I like talking about why i moved from my homeland….if you’d like to understand why just pm me about it

Edit:

I realize that to love and to be loved I need to change. A good friend taught me that in order for forgiveness I need to change who I am….I let my past consume me for so long that I have become blind to what I do and how a really effect those around me.
I can’t let the things that happened to me shift me into some monster…..and I have.
Today I will change…I will become more selfless…I will stop drinking…..I will care about those around me…..I will find the right path for myself……and maybe one day I will find forgiveness….and be able to forgive myself as well……Until then, I will keep on being myself….and not my past.