Andhakara

I have friends I don’t deserve, and the people that tolerate me are saints themselves. I thank all of the people who think I am a good person or think I can get better.
I know I’m a human, but I’m not good at being a person.
I don’t deserve you. My behavior has become less of just having fun and more of an addiction, a habit. I get bored so easily that I would do anything to ease it. I’m not the type of person to get happy or sad. My emotions are dull, and feeling anything is just a bliss to me… but I use people like a parasite and I think it’s okay. I even EXPECT them to push me away, but when they do push me I get so bored, and I feel empty and depressed again.
I thank anyone just for reading this and taking what I think into their minds. I’m a wracked human being that I shouldn’t even consider a person. I became what I beheld and I beheld filth. Don’t pity a soul such as I. I deserve worse.
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“Do not judge, or you too shall be judged.”