Cheesyromance

one of the best songs i’ve ever made

even in a crowd, i feel all alone, no matter where i am, i never feel at home, every one insults me, with asserted agression, forcing me inside myself, into a hopeless depression, i try to cry out in despair, but no matter how loud i yell, no one cares, i just keep shouting out more and more, i am more lonely than ever before, people dont know how i feel, if this keeps up ill never hheal, every time i care for someone else i am torn apart, whenever i hold someone close to me.. i get stabbed through the heart, living through heart break and death causes me unbearable pain, soon i will loose myself.. and go insane, its hard to see clearly through blurry tears, seeing people every day.. is my greatest fear, i always dream of people.. accepting me, but every day it seems like a deluded.. fantasy, im fading away, im loosing my mind, i just can’t wait, to leave this world behind, wither people love me.. i can never tell, my entire life.. is a living hell, as soon as i feel life will get better before long, somebody puts me down.. and proves me wrong, lving life, not knowing whats wrong or whats right, crying myself to sleep.. every night, im fading away.. to a hollow shell, i always feel that my life.. is a living hell, if people saw me they’d know im cryin inside, but before they give me a chance, id try to hide, i just stare at the puddle.. of my tears left on the floor, lookin at myself.. as i was once before, im afraid to let people get close to me and try to help, to prevent heart break.. i just keep to myself, even though im lonelier than ive ever been, im just afraid.. to get hurt again, and try as i might, i just try in vain, cause i know this is how it is, and it will never change