My last goodbye to you. This last memory I stick in your unfortunate mind. This last note I leave for you. This last piece that solves the puzzle. It isn’t much though.
I don’t know how I’ll decide to start. Maybe just by saying how sorry I am for all these heartbeaks. How many times have I given you a second chance though? We all made the mistakes. No blame pinned on oneself yet. I mostly consider this my fault. The fact that I should just…what…? Keep getting up after you’ve pushed me down? Keep forgiving you. Always giving ONE more chance. The cracks in my heart though…they kept creeping down. I felt those shudders within. I kept it quiet. How many tears that I hold back from your eyes. The time I spent coping over our quarels. The cracks deepen though. I found myself hurting myself. All that time I spent critizing myself for letting it get to me. Eventually all my chances in that pool of love had dried up. The last strike upon me. I felt my heart shatter into pieces. Every part shone like a star in the skies. On the ground I looked at those shards. You didn’t bother to pick them up – they were invisible to you. I bent down and picked up a shard. I cut my hand on it. The drop of blood had spead over it. I saw your face on it. I hurled it in the pond…as it sunk I felt it falling deeper. Farther down it went…it started fading away. The ripples on the surface began to flatten out. I looked down and saw myself standing there. This last deathblow had struck just the right place. The stain of blood across my chest. I looked back at my shattered heart. I could have picked up the shards of love. Filled up the pond of second chances. Let go of all your mistakes. I looked back at the surface. Something changed though…those lights within my eyes – the light of hope. It began to dim. I tried so hard to keep it burning! Eventually this candle went out in a thin wisp of smoke. There on the surface were two gray eyes. No hope. No faith. No love. My three rules to life. There was no more life in those eyes. Only thousands of tears that have been held back. They swell up…a burst. A flood down my cheeks. The tears fell in the pond. I took one last look. Searching desperately for my life. No. It was over and I lost to you. In the dark clouds above me I saw your face glare down at me. I knew it was over then. Death of my soul slowly loomed ahead of me. Without my soul I would only be morbid. No happiness could flow through me…unless. The pond whispered to me. Calling my name sweetly. I felt its call drawing me in. Beckoning me with the temptation, my last move against you. My very own deathblow. My death. I crawled across those shards of love. They cut me as I clawed towards the pond. I dared look up at your glare. Your dark eyes’ glare bored into my body. I felt you stealing my soul. Closer to the pond though… I’m almost there. I struggled to stand up. I managed. It had finally struck me that this was my last try. In trying though…there isn’t failure. I dove in. Within the water you were nothing. I fled deeper. The purity of this water had killed you. The only thing it was were the tears I cried for you. Now you had drowned in them. But I noticed…I was already dead within my own body. I was sinking deeper. Those dark clouds grew lighter. Slowly..the sun shone across my face. I felt a smile make its last trip over my face. I closed my eyes. Maybe beyond this I could discover this so called God up there. We had to have a little talk.
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