Inkfighter

I was a 5th grader who signed up for Kong and now I’m boutta graduate highschool. Came back because the math homework I’m doing at 2am is too stressful and I’m retracing my steps back to thy childhood. Did I also mention I’m bawling my eyes out? Because extracurricular class calculus makes me question whether I should throw myself into a trashbin, just used a calculator to solve 2+10. Why was I laughing 3 years ago at memes of people being so down about being teenagers, lemme go beat my past self up, little ungrateful dunce. Help it’s almost 3am I’m not even done with the 3rd problem WHERE IS MY DOG I NEED MY DOG my paper is so wet now help.

Disclaimer, High school is fine, it’s just procrastinating that gets you to 3am crying while trying to keep your dog in your lap as your only source of emotional support. Trying not to make a peep because your parents gonna come at you with a slipper if they know you’re awake at 3am. WHY IS THERE A SHADOW AT THE CORNER OF MY eYEe. I just don’t care if any of my future employers find this because they should understand a midlife crisis at 3am while trying to keep myself together mentally. KEEP STILL YOU BALL OF FUR

Update 2022, I’m now a college student. I have less of a energetic-like personality than I used to lol. I was definitely found awake at 3am so trying to stay quiet didn’t really work.

Not at home anymore, I moved out of state, trying to adapt away from home and keep up with coursework. Still trying to find who I am and I’m still struggling to deal with life, it’s not as hard as it was when I wrote the first time because I’m acknowledging it now. I love how I was wrote how I missed the past but it’s hitting harder now more than ever, the first paragraph was the kid I was trying to act older.

Calculus still sucks and I love my dogs.

Edit 2025:

My problems previous to this edit seem way more insignificant to the ones I have today, but I’m incredibly grateful to have experienced them all. I can’t believe it’s been 9 years, it’s all been a blur.

If you somehow stumble across this, I hope you enjoy your life as it is right now. Maybe you’re scared of the future and not doing things right the first time, maybe you’re unsure about the person you’ll become, let me tell you those really don’t matter. Think of it like riding a bike, seriously, you’re on your bike going somewhere, but you’re riding a bike. You’ll be heading somewhere in life consistently doing SOMETHING, and you’ll always end up somewhere being whoever you are in the present.

I can back this, I said I hated calculus – I lied, I found out I loved it in college. Do I still love my dogs? Do you even have to ask lol.