UnbearablePain

I love the rain because no one can tell that your crying.I stand perfectly still, the wind blowing in my hair, staring into your direction as u walk away from me. Completely out of my life. Its not enough to say im sorry, i’ve tried. All I can do is say goodbye, you deserve so much better. You didn’t realize that you were the love of my life. I woke up every morning knowing someone cared about me. Now I have nothing, because, once again, i fucked up. I tried so hard; i wish i could take it all back. I choke as i say goodbye, and relized i wasn’t breathing. A tear slowing making its way down my face, towards my mouth. I hate the taste of tears. I noticed the unbearable pain in my chest and the weakness in my legs. I had to sit down in the grass for fear of me falling on my face. I watched as you walked toward the horizon, covered up mostly by dark clouds. Then as u disappeared over the hill, my mind went blank and i stared off into the distance. The rain seemed harder than usual, as it beat against my back. I sat there still not moved, wondering what you were doing. Then it seemed as my life just crashed into the ground as i burst into tears. My body lost all control and fell backward. I looked up into the sky as the rain replenished my eyes. Hating myself for letting this pass right by me. Whispering so gently “I love you.”