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    <body>Glomple was telling me that having 8 main characters was a secret to him keeping writing. I have been writing from the point of view of one character for awhile, and I eventually plan to interweave the story lines more anyway, so I decided to have the character I've hardly written anything about (the one who is JohannasGarden online, lol, I have reasons for using my username even though the JohannasGarden in the novel is not me, though we share a few experiences :P) offer to do some Earth-centered energy magic on behalf of some of her friends in the chat room, which in the book will work dramatically, but in surprising ways. It's a joke among some people in the DE that I'm in training to be a goddess of fertility who can grant romantic blessings to those whose behavior pleases me--so it will be like that except with candles and spells and stuff. Then it will be like writing a beginning chapter without scrapping what I have (a nano no-no). So I'm daydreaming about magic rituals in the cyber-age.

Congrats, Lax, on passing 35K.

Deriaz--really, if you can keep writing somehow--introduce a character and see what they do, write a flashback of each character's childhood. You can use or not use these in the final manuscript, but they count for nano wordcount and they will add depth to your characters that will likely benefit you in either subtle or direct ways.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;Glomple was telling me that having 8 main characters was a secret to him keeping writing. I have been writing from the point of view of one character for awhile, and I eventually plan to interweave the story lines more anyway, so I decided to have the character I&amp;#8217;ve hardly written anything about (the one who is JohannasGarden online, lol, I have reasons for using my username even though the JohannasGarden in the novel is not me, though we share a few experiences :P) offer to do some Earth-centered energy magic on behalf of some of her friends in the chat room, which in the book will work dramatically, but in surprising ways. It&amp;#8217;s a joke among some people in the DE that I&amp;#8217;m in training to be a goddess of fertility who can grant romantic blessings to those whose behavior pleases me&amp;#8212;so it will be like that except with candles and spells and stuff. Then it will be like writing a beginning chapter without scrapping what I have (a nano no-no). So I&amp;#8217;m daydreaming about magic rituals in the cyber-age.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Congrats, Lax, on passing 35K.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Deriaz&amp;#8212;really, if you can keep writing somehow&amp;#8212;introduce a character and see what they do, write a flashback of each character&amp;#8217;s childhood. You can use or not use these in the final manuscript, but they count for nano wordcount and they will add depth to your characters that will likely benefit you in either subtle or direct ways.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I'm proud and impressed of all of you who have gotten to 30K. I'm still working on 10K, but I'm hoping to do that before the weekend. I'm thinking about making my goal a 1/2 nano--25K. That would still involve a lot of catch up since it's past 1/2 way and I don't have 12,500 either.

The big good news for me is that I haven't given up even though I'm not writing much--I tend to scrap the whole project when I am at the &quot;Everything I've written sucks and I'm out of even sucky ideas&quot; stage. I am getting past that though. I'm actually writing a bit more slowly, but I'm more wrapped up in the sensory and emotional world of the story. The locations are places I haven't seen for over 20 years, so it's interesting to go through this process where the visual memories gradually come back so that I can see places vividly that I couldn't picture very clearly just a week ago. I'm going through a part that is involves a lot of uncomfortable feelings for my female lead, so I think that's another reason why writing isn't exactly flying, but despite all I've said about the benefits of writing fast, writing slowly seems necessary here to get into the write state of awareness, to sit back, close my eyes, and imagine the way the stars were reflected in the water or the way that kiss I quickly came to regret returning felt.

I haven't really developed my male lead yet, which will be more challenging because it's not based on personal experiences as  he's an imaginary person who lives in a place I haven't spent much time in.

I am really enjoying going out in the evening to write. I just wish the coffeeshops in town were open longer, since I can't really get out before 8:30 p.m. or so (I need my kids to be sleeping and my husband home) and they close at 10 (but they don't immediately throw you out).</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I&amp;#8217;m proud and impressed of all of you who have gotten to 30K. I&amp;#8217;m still working on 10K, but I&amp;#8217;m hoping to do that before the weekend. I&amp;#8217;m thinking about making my goal a 1/2 nano&amp;#8212;25K. That would still involve a lot of catch up since it&amp;#8217;s past 1/2 way and I don&amp;#8217;t have 12,500 either.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The big good news for me is that I haven&amp;#8217;t given up even though I&amp;#8217;m not writing much&amp;#8212;I tend to scrap the whole project when I am at the &amp;#8220;Everything I&amp;#8217;ve written sucks and I&amp;#8217;m out of even sucky ideas&amp;#8221; stage. I am getting past that though. I&amp;#8217;m actually writing a bit more slowly, but I&amp;#8217;m more wrapped up in the sensory and emotional world of the story. The locations are places I haven&amp;#8217;t seen for over 20 years, so it&amp;#8217;s interesting to go through this process where the visual memories gradually come back so that I can see places vividly that I couldn&amp;#8217;t picture very clearly just a week ago. I&amp;#8217;m going through a part that is involves a lot of uncomfortable feelings for my female lead, so I think that&amp;#8217;s another reason why writing isn&amp;#8217;t exactly flying, but despite all I&amp;#8217;ve said about the benefits of writing fast, writing slowly seems necessary here to get into the write state of awareness, to sit back, close my eyes, and imagine the way the stars were reflected in the water or the way that kiss I quickly came to regret returning felt.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I haven&amp;#8217;t really developed my male lead yet, which will be more challenging because it&amp;#8217;s not based on personal experiences as  he&amp;#8217;s an imaginary person who lives in a place I haven&amp;#8217;t spent much time in.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I am really enjoying going out in the evening to write. I just wish the coffeeshops in town were open longer, since I can&amp;#8217;t really get out before 8:30 p.m. or so (I need my kids to be sleeping and my husband home) and they close at 10 (but they don&amp;#8217;t immediately throw you out).&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>Thanks for the tut, Tilty, and good luck with the pics :)</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;Thanks for the tut, Tilty, and good luck with the pics :)&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>How is everyone feeling about things this week. Despite being far below my goals, I am writing something almost every day, and I'm pretty pleased about that. The things I'm writing are also good for me to write, I think--I'm learning something from it anyway. I find that if I need to write when I'm tired, going out to a coffeeshop to do it is really helpful in preventing me from falling asleep at the computer. The only problem is that they all close at 10 around here except on weekends. 

Deriaz, is there anything we can do to help you jumptstart again? the 50K goal is still in reach for you, I think, and I'd like to read your novel someday :D</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;How is everyone feeling about things this week. Despite being far below my goals, I am writing something almost every day, and I&amp;#8217;m pretty pleased about that. The things I&amp;#8217;m writing are also good for me to write, I think&amp;#8212;I&amp;#8217;m learning something from it anyway. I find that if I need to write when I&amp;#8217;m tired, going out to a coffeeshop to do it is really helpful in preventing me from falling asleep at the computer. The only problem is that they all close at 10 around here except on weekends.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Deriaz, is there anything we can do to help you jumptstart again? the 50K goal is still in reach for you, I think, and I&amp;#8217;d like to read your novel someday :D&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I did write...probably &lt; 1K words, but I wrote...it was an encounter between my main character and a man she meets while traveling and she can't figure out if there's something wrong with them talking and hanging out (since he's married, and it seems to disturb people).</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I did write&amp;#8230;probably &amp;lt; 1K words, but I wrote&amp;#8230;it was an encounter between my main character and a man she meets while traveling and she can&amp;#8217;t figure out if there&amp;#8217;s something wrong with them talking and hanging out (since he&amp;#8217;s married, and it seems to disturb people).&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>BOB, I think you know that doesn't fit with the work on this thread. Also, be aware that the Art Forums are, with only a few exceptions, for posting original art that you made yourself and not random images from smiley collections. Thank you, and welcome to the Art Forum.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;&lt;span class=&quot;caps&quot;&gt;BOB&lt;/span&gt;, I think you know that doesn&amp;#8217;t fit with the work on this thread. Also, be aware that the Art Forums are, with only a few exceptions, for posting original art that you made yourself and not random images from smiley collections. Thank you, and welcome to the Art Forum.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>another thing that helped me restart was to do the 4 points outline--write down 4 things you'll have happen in the next segment you write. Something like that anyway. Also, giving myself to tell a story I wasn't sure what I would do with rather than going in order. I'm not the best role model in this :P, but maybe something like that would work for you. The notes can be made when waiting in line or something. Try to write something even if it's only a few hundred words. 

You'll get back if you keep pushing.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;another thing that helped me restart was to do the 4 points outline&amp;#8212;write down 4 things you&amp;#8217;ll have happen in the next segment you write. Something like that anyway. Also, giving myself to tell a story I wasn&amp;#8217;t sure what I would do with rather than going in order. I&amp;#8217;m not the best role model in this :P, but maybe something like that would work for you. The notes can be made when waiting in line or something. Try to write something even if it&amp;#8217;s only a few hundred words.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;You&amp;#8217;ll get back if you keep pushing.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;cite&gt;Originally posted by &lt;b&gt;&lt;a href='/forums/5/topics/56002?page=8#posts-1456121'&gt;Laxaria&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/cite&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Nearing the 30k mark now. Having fun while doing it, and as usual character relationships tend to kill me. Less kissing and more action? :P&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;

Kissing _is_ action :P 

I think I'll do better if I skip ahead to the kissing--I have a busy day today/tonight, but I'm hoping to get back into things tomorrow. I'm going to consider it a personal nano victory if I don't just totally give up before the end of the month.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;cite&gt;Originally posted by &lt;b&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;/forums/5/topics/56002?page=8#posts-1456121&quot;&gt;Laxaria&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/cite&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Nearing the 30k mark now. Having fun while doing it, and as usual character relationships tend to kill me. Less kissing and more action? :P&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Kissing &lt;em&gt;is&lt;/em&gt; action :P&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I think I&amp;#8217;ll do better if I skip ahead to the kissing&amp;#8212;I have a busy day today/tonight, but I&amp;#8217;m hoping to get back into things tomorrow. I&amp;#8217;m going to consider it a personal nano victory if I don&amp;#8217;t just totally give up before the end of the month.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I don't know what people usually use for tut's (like is a CG a video?),but I would like a step by step that shows or describes stages, tools you are using, and what zoom you are working at (if you zoom in and out a lot). What I mean about learning from how you coloring is not so much choices but how you build up layers and blend them, so I would probably get more out of lots of shots of steps on a small area rather than a tut showing the whole pic with fewer documentation of the step by step. If you go back and forth between the same colors, it can be helpful to see how you do that.

Thanks, Tilty!</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I don&amp;#8217;t know what people usually use for tut&amp;#8217;s (like is a CG a video?),but I would like a step by step that shows or describes stages, tools you are using, and what zoom you are working at (if you zoom in and out a lot). What I mean about learning from how you coloring is not so much choices but how you build up layers and blend them, so I would probably get more out of lots of shots of steps on a small area rather than a tut showing the whole pic with fewer documentation of the step by step. If you go back and forth between the same colors, it can be helpful to see how you do that.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Thanks, Tilty!&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I'll sign up too if it's not too late. I'm okay with being in or not in, raw</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I&amp;#8217;ll sign up too if it&amp;#8217;s not too late. I&amp;#8217;m okay with being in or not in, raw&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>Art on Kong can be pretty sexy. You can't show nipple or genital detail on Kong--that's usually where the dividing line falls. I haven't noticed anything within this thread that isn't fine for kong.

Tilty, I would love to see some sort of tutorial or step by step of how you work. I never would have guessed you made them this way, and I suspect that many of us could learn from your use of color in getting this effect.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;Art on Kong can be pretty sexy. You can&amp;#8217;t show nipple or genital detail on Kong&amp;#8212;that&amp;#8217;s usually where the dividing line falls. I haven&amp;#8217;t noticed anything within this thread that isn&amp;#8217;t fine for kong.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Tilty, I would love to see some sort of tutorial or step by step of how you work. I never would have guessed you made them this way, and I suspect that many of us could learn from your use of color in getting this effect.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;cite&gt;Originally posted by &lt;b&gt;&lt;a href='/forums/5/topics/56002?page=8#posts-1445138'&gt;Mureth&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/cite&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Am I the only one who would rather take their time and produce something that&amp;#8217;s actually worth publishing?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;

One thing I do believe is that the Nano type of process is good for a lot of people. It's sometimes more important to keep writing than it is to try and make everything you write good. Trying to make everything &quot;good&quot; when still writing often leads to not writing. Also, lots of people report that writing fast and under pressure, even when it does produce much that later gets discarded, can lead to more inventive, surprising plot twists and characters that come more alive when the writing is fast.

In addition, there are some novelists who have written novels very quickly. Philip K. Dick often wrote fast because he needed the money. He'd write a short novel within a few day and nights with very little sleep. Some weren't so great, but most were novels I would love to have written. If you read a lot of books by writers on writing, you will find that many of them have some method of forcing themselves to write quickly and winnow and revise further down the line.

Nanowrimo does provide lots of tools and tips for editing a novel draft in December.

_And to make this a mega wall of text, here's an excerpt from mine--it's part of the passage describing the dream that led to my username:_

	But at one point, my feet stopped. The path came to a Y-intersection, and right at the center of the Y was a flower stand. Sitting in front of the stand was a smiling woman who seemed like the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen. She had long, wavy auburn hair tied back with a silk scarf. Her smile was warm and broad and when she looked at me with her light-filled green eyes, her gaze was so direct and knowing that I wanted to look away and hide yet I also wanted to surrender myself to her confidence and certainty. I wanted to be her lover, to see and touch her skin beneath her warm soft clothes and to feel her skin against mine, the weight of her body upon me. I wanted to be embraced by her while I wept out all the sadness and disappointment that tainted everything beautiful I try to create, to be mentored by her, to walk with her and see the world as she saw it. I wanted to be what she was&#8212;strong, beautiful, intense, knowing. 

	Finally she spoke, &#8220;Hello, I'm Johanna. Please, look at my flowers.&#8221; It was then that I looked. The wooden benches behind her supported ceramic urns in which the most marvelous flowers imaginable were held. Each flower was similar to, but more wonderful than, any flower I'd seen before. There were sheaves of pampas grass that shimmered with every color of the rainbow. There were roses that glittered, and, when the sun hit one of the dewdrops upon them just right, it was as if a glowing ball of light expanded from it to suffuse the soul of anyone looking on. I can't remember all the marvelous flowers I saw there, but the impression I had was that they had the power to bless the person who beheld them deeply with something they needed to live more freely and joyfully. 

	The best way I can describe the power of the flowers is to tell a story from my waking past. I was about eighteen years old, and I was studying piano performance in college and working on a set of three intermezzi by Brahms. There was a particular one I was working on that would fill me such intense longing whenever I played or heard it. It was as if the music held the secret to what I most needed in my life, and in a way it was true. Like me, it was passionate and romantic and at times allowed a sort of wild freedom to break forth. But unlike me, it was ordered and controlled much of the time, and the moments of freedom and romance were all the more powerful for it. I'd be playing a lovely melody in the right hand, largely forgetting the left, and then a melody so powerful and gorgeous would begin to sing out of the bass line, and the moment could be so beautiful that it seemed impossible for my body to contain all that I was feeling. 

	I was never one to practice until I perfected a piece. I felt that I'd learned what I wanted to learn from it and became bored and anxious to pick up something else long before the first piece was polished. This piece, though, I longed to play perfectly. I listened to recordings of different pianists playing. I wanted to play it exactly as each of them did and then play the piece in the unique way that only my fingers, supported by my life and my entire being, could play it. I thought that if I could do that, if I could play it that perfectly and that fully, that it would transform me, that it's beauty would become a part of me.

	The flowers from Johanna's garden are like music of this kind of beauty and promise. They are wonders that hold the key to making one wondrous. At the time of this dream, and perhaps it's still the same for me today, decades later, I wanted more than anything to be filled with that sort of beauty and passionate intensity, to be like a magical being suffused with light and fire, with the illumination of all the caverns of longing. I wanted my presence in the world to be something all could be glad of, just as we are glad that Brahms learned to play the piano and write music for it. 

	I was drawn to all the flowers, and found it difficult to choose. If only I could have simply reached out to the one I was most drawn to! But instead I couldn't stop thinking&#8212;about what each choice might say about me and whether that were what what I wanted others, like Johanna, to think of me. As long as I was trying to make an impression or thinking endlessly about what was &#8220;the best thing to do&#8221; instead of just reaching towards what called to me, I couldn't make a decision. 

	Johanna smiled at me then and said, &#8220;You should come to my garden sometime. You'll know how to find it as long as you set out and you'll know when you've arrive as long as your eyes are open.&#8221;</body>
    <body-html>&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;cite&gt;Originally posted by &lt;b&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;/forums/5/topics/56002?page=8#posts-1445138&quot;&gt;Mureth&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/cite&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Am I the only one who would rather take their time and produce something that&amp;#8217;s actually worth publishing?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;One thing I do believe is that the Nano type of process is good for a lot of people. It&amp;#8217;s sometimes more important to keep writing than it is to try and make everything you write good. Trying to make everything &amp;#8220;good&amp;#8221; when still writing often leads to not writing. Also, lots of people report that writing fast and under pressure, even when it does produce much that later gets discarded, can lead to more inventive, surprising plot twists and characters that come more alive when the writing is fast.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;In addition, there are some novelists who have written novels very quickly. Philip K. Dick often wrote fast because he needed the money. He&amp;#8217;d write a short novel within a few day and nights with very little sleep. Some weren&amp;#8217;t so great, but most were novels I would love to have written. If you read a lot of books by writers on writing, you will find that many of them have some method of forcing themselves to write quickly and winnow and revise further down the line.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Nanowrimo does provide lots of tools and tips for editing a novel draft in December.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;And to make this a mega wall of text, here&amp;#8217;s an excerpt from mine&amp;#8212;it&amp;#8217;s part of the passage describing the dream that led to my username:&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;But at one point, my feet stopped. The path came to a Y-intersection, and right at the center of the Y was a flower stand. Sitting in front of the stand was a smiling woman who seemed like the most beautiful woman I&amp;#8217;d ever seen. She had long, wavy auburn hair tied back with a silk scarf. Her smile was warm and broad and when she looked at me with her light-filled green eyes, her gaze was so direct and knowing that I wanted to look away and hide yet I also wanted to surrender myself to her confidence and certainty. I wanted to be her lover, to see and touch her skin beneath her warm soft clothes and to feel her skin against mine, the weight of her body upon me. I wanted to be embraced by her while I wept out all the sadness and disappointment that tainted everything beautiful I try to create, to be mentored by her, to walk with her and see the world as she saw it. I wanted to be what she was&#8212;strong, beautiful, intense, knowing.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Finally she spoke, &#8220;Hello, I&amp;#8217;m Johanna. Please, look at my flowers.&#8221; It was then that I looked. The wooden benches behind her supported ceramic urns in which the most marvelous flowers imaginable were held. Each flower was similar to, but more wonderful than, any flower I&amp;#8217;d seen before. There were sheaves of pampas grass that shimmered with every color of the rainbow. There were roses that glittered, and, when the sun hit one of the dewdrops upon them just right, it was as if a glowing ball of light expanded from it to suffuse the soul of anyone looking on. I can&amp;#8217;t remember all the marvelous flowers I saw there, but the impression I had was that they had the power to bless the person who beheld them deeply with something they needed to live more freely and joyfully.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The best way I can describe the power of the flowers is to tell a story from my waking past. I was about eighteen years old, and I was studying piano performance in college and working on a set of three intermezzi by Brahms. There was a particular one I was working on that would fill me such intense longing whenever I played or heard it. It was as if the music held the secret to what I most needed in my life, and in a way it was true. Like me, it was passionate and romantic and at times allowed a sort of wild freedom to break forth. But unlike me, it was ordered and controlled much of the time, and the moments of freedom and romance were all the more powerful for it. I&amp;#8217;d be playing a lovely melody in the right hand, largely forgetting the left, and then a melody so powerful and gorgeous would begin to sing out of the bass line, and the moment could be so beautiful that it seemed impossible for my body to contain all that I was feeling.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I was never one to practice until I perfected a piece. I felt that I&amp;#8217;d learned what I wanted to learn from it and became bored and anxious to pick up something else long before the first piece was polished. This piece, though, I longed to play perfectly. I listened to recordings of different pianists playing. I wanted to play it exactly as each of them did and then play the piece in the unique way that only my fingers, supported by my life and my entire being, could play it. I thought that if I could do that, if I could play it that perfectly and that fully, that it would transform me, that it&amp;#8217;s beauty would become a part of me.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;The flowers from Johanna&amp;#8217;s garden are like music of this kind of beauty and promise. They are wonders that hold the key to making one wondrous. At the time of this dream, and perhaps it&amp;#8217;s still the same for me today, decades later, I wanted more than anything to be filled with that sort of beauty and passionate intensity, to be like a magical being suffused with light and fire, with the illumination of all the caverns of longing. I wanted my presence in the world to be something all could be glad of, just as we are glad that Brahms learned to play the piano and write music for it.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I was drawn to all the flowers, and found it difficult to choose. If only I could have simply reached out to the one I was most drawn to! But instead I couldn&amp;#8217;t stop thinking&#8212;about what each choice might say about me and whether that were what what I wanted others, like Johanna, to think of me. As long as I was trying to make an impression or thinking endlessly about what was &#8220;the best thing to do&#8221; instead of just reaching towards what called to me, I couldn&amp;#8217;t make a decision.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Johanna smiled at me then and said, &#8220;You should come to my garden sometime. You&amp;#8217;ll know how to find it as long as you set out and you&amp;#8217;ll know when you&amp;#8217;ve arrive as long as your eyes are open.&#8221;&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I'm great to see this round is getting off the ground. I'm not in this round since I'm focusing on writing, but I look forward to seeing the pics!</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I&amp;#8217;m great to see this round is getting off the ground. I&amp;#8217;m not in this round since I&amp;#8217;m focusing on writing, but I look forward to seeing the pics!&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>Awesome, Lax--you and Deriaz are really an inspiration.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;Awesome, Lax&amp;#8212;you and Deriaz are really an inspiration.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I don't know how far I'll get, but I'm trying to keep writing and learning a lot about what I need to keep writing. I hope this will be a good preparation for next year, at any rate, as I now have a better feel for what I should have done in October this time.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I don&amp;#8217;t know how far I&amp;#8217;ll get, but I&amp;#8217;m trying to keep writing and learning a lot about what I need to keep writing. I hope this will be a good preparation for next year, at any rate, as I now have a better feel for what I should have done in October this time.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>Now that I've found Write or Die, I'm no longer as into doing Word Wars. I've got a lot of catching up to do this weekend, but at least I've restarted.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;Now that I&amp;#8217;ve found Write or Die, I&amp;#8217;m no longer as into doing Word Wars. I&amp;#8217;ve got a lot of catching up to do this weekend, but at least I&amp;#8217;ve restarted.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I'd be willing to enter the 1 week word war, although I also like the idea of a timed one--would anyone be interested in posting 20 minute word counts as well? The people who posted about it on my local group had varied experiences in the quality of writing from short bursts--one said it was useful for upping word count but rarely resulted in some of the better passages, another said she ended up discovering plot twists or things about characters that she might never thought of without the pressure of writing fast.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I&amp;#8217;d be willing to enter the 1 week word war, although I also like the idea of a timed one&amp;#8212;would anyone be interested in posting 20 minute word counts as well? The people who posted about it on my local group had varied experiences in the quality of writing from short bursts&amp;#8212;one said it was useful for upping word count but rarely resulted in some of the better passages, another said she ended up discovering plot twists or things about characters that she might never thought of without the pressure of writing fast.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I would love to do a Word War--someone was describing these in my region thread, and it's too big a deal for me to go out when they happen. I had been wondering about suggesting we do something like this. In my region, people set a timer for 20 minutes or so and write as much as possible in that time period. Is that how you imagine it? Would we try and do it simultaneously or each have a 20 minute limit and see what we can do in that time. I see no problem with you doing it, too, since none of us are likely to be competitive about being &quot;the winner&quot; and if it works like the write-ins in my region, the &quot;winner&quot; is simply the one with the highest word count in a particular time period.

Since I missed a few days, I need some extra encouragement to get some high word count spurts in to get me back on track.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I would love to do a Word War&amp;#8212;someone was describing these in my region thread, and it&amp;#8217;s too big a deal for me to go out when they happen. I had been wondering about suggesting we do something like this. In my region, people set a timer for 20 minutes or so and write as much as possible in that time period. Is that how you imagine it? Would we try and do it simultaneously or each have a 20 minute limit and see what we can do in that time. I see no problem with you doing it, too, since none of us are likely to be competitive about being &amp;#8220;the winner&amp;#8221; and if it works like the write-ins in my region, the &amp;#8220;winner&amp;#8221; is simply the one with the highest word count in a particular time period.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;Since I missed a few days, I need some extra encouragement to get some high word count spurts in to get me back on track.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>Something I thought I would try when I have a hard time figuring out where to go next--I have read (somewhere...I think :)) that when Philip K. Dick wrote _The Man in the High Castle_ that he used the I Ching in his writing. So I plan to throw pennies when I'm not exactly sure where I want to go next.

And I didn't find that entering word count worked when I tried it the first day, but it did when I copy/pasted my text in. I'll try the other way, though, but you answered my question--I want to enter total to date and not total for the day. Thanks, Lax.

And my increased illness seems clearly to have been from secondary bronchitis/exacerbated asthma--on day 2 of antibiotics and steroids I'm doing much, much better. I just have to recalculate a new daily goal based on 28 rather than 30 days, as I missed 2. I can handle that (it's the actually writing that much that's tough--besides the fact that I've always loved planning things to write, I often struggle mightily with getting down to doing it.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;Something I thought I would try when I have a hard time figuring out where to go next&amp;#8212;I have read (somewhere&amp;#8230;I think :)) that when Philip K. Dick wrote &lt;em&gt;The Man in the High Castle&lt;/em&gt; that he used the I Ching in his writing. So I plan to throw pennies when I&amp;#8217;m not exactly sure where I want to go next.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And I didn&amp;#8217;t find that entering word count worked when I tried it the first day, but it did when I copy/pasted my text in. I&amp;#8217;ll try the other way, though, but you answered my question&amp;#8212;I want to enter total to date and not total for the day. Thanks, Lax.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And my increased illness seems clearly to have been from secondary bronchitis/exacerbated asthma&amp;#8212;on day 2 of antibiotics and steroids I&amp;#8217;m doing much, much better. I just have to recalculate a new daily goal based on 28 rather than 30 days, as I missed 2. I can handle that (it&amp;#8217;s the actually writing that much that&amp;#8217;s tough&amp;#8212;besides the fact that I&amp;#8217;ve always loved planning things to write, I often struggle mightily with getting down to doing it.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>When we update on days beyond the first, do we paste everything we've written ever or just what we wrote that day?</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;When we update on days beyond the first, do we paste everything we&amp;#8217;ve written ever or just what we wrote that day?&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>I either just came down with the flu or am getting bronchitis from last week's flu/virus. Either way, I'm getting achier again and my fever has gone back up. 

I hope I can keep up while I'm sick</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;I either just came down with the flu or am getting bronchitis from last week&amp;#8217;s flu/virus. Either way, I&amp;#8217;m getting achier again and my fever has gone back up.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;I hope I can keep up while I&amp;#8217;m sick&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>Just a mod reminder that posting explicit porn links on Kong, in forums or chat, will get you a weekban, and sites that steal your mouse and spam popups may get you a days silence. Please don't post them, and don't quote the post containing them. Thank you.</body>
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    <body>pic 7 is very obviously wearing Nike's. I tend to agree with your picks. The one of Jedidude became obvious to me the moment someone else pointed it out :P

And I'm going to guess that Hokage drew techyworm because I think there is a &quot;Brandon&quot; in the hat.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;pic 7 is very obviously wearing Nike&amp;#8217;s. I tend to agree with your picks. The one of Jedidude became obvious to me the moment someone else pointed it out :P&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And I&amp;#8217;m going to guess that Hokage drew techyworm because I think there is a &amp;#8220;Brandon&amp;#8221; in the hat.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>*hugs if welcome, GraphicDesignC* I read the other thread just this morning, and I'm sorry for your loss.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;hugs if welcome, GraphicDesignC&lt;/strong&gt; I read the other thread just this morning, and I&amp;#8217;m sorry for your loss.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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    <body>&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;You look like you are 10&amp;#8230; XD&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;

lol, That is my son, and he's 9 :) And as an OT note, he will turn 10 on 10/10/10, for which he tells me we must have the most awesome party ever....preferably one that lasts from 10 a.m. to 10 p.m. on 10/10/10 and features 10 different kinds of cake.

And he pointed out that we didn't put his body on for the pics, so I'll replace them soon.</body>
    <body-html>&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;You look like you are 10&amp;#8230; XD&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;
&lt;p&gt;lol, That is my son, and he&amp;#8217;s 9 :) And as an OT note, he will turn 10 on 10/10/10, for which he tells me we must have the most awesome party ever&amp;#8230;.preferably one that lasts from 10 a.m. to 10 p.m. on 10/10/10 and features 10 different kinds of cake.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;And he pointed out that we didn&amp;#8217;t put his body on for the pics, so I&amp;#8217;ll replace them soon.&lt;/p&gt;</body-html>
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