Looks like I may have been unfairly permanently banned from entering Crusaders Of The Lost Idols Discord and I miss it very badly. What will I do now before Kongegrate makes its radical change this July 22, 2020 or later? Even if I make a new discord account and join COTLI channel, I would be in big trouble or this situation would not be any better. https://discord.com/invite/fzhdWA6

This is a compliation of your chat in the Discord server the day you were banned:  Here are the messages you sent me in a private message that same day. (Note that these messages were sent *before* you were banned.)  This is a preview of the spam you posted in Steam chat after you were banned.  You were permanently banned for sure, but far from unfairly. > What will I do now before Kongegrate makes its radical change this July 22, 2020 or later? You probably should have thought about that before you went on your little tirade.

inb4 deletion

Just move on, let it go. If it's something (or even someone) you really care about, you can try and make amends or perhaps give some space for some time. But if it doesn't work out, then move on knowing that you did what you could.

Who cares? Who knows? That sucks. So much drama and clickbait I have now. You guys, even the mods will have to ignore and avoid me forever. I have no remorse, nor compassion nor empathy to anyone, not even to myself. There is so much harm than any help. So much danger ongoing from me and it is sealing my fate. This isn't getting any better but a sudden turn for the worse for me only. Look, I am only just psychotic, sociopathic, psychopathic, mentally ill and crazy person no one knows or cares about. Such hatred and despair I have felt. I am both responsible and irresponsible for very negative actions and I incited very negative and destructive things on Crusaders Of The Lost Idols Discord and Steam chat. It became too toxic and destructive and it is near completely beyond repair. This makes no sense to me what I am just a stupid, toxic, hostile, uncaring, cold, introverted, violent, worthless, nonsense, senseless, offensive person (I am not a sadistic, savage, evil, bad, vicious or wicked person), an idiot and I am a garbage and huge mess to everyone in Discord, but not you guys. No one believes in me, and everyone hates me and they don't like me anymore. It is left with huge scars and destruction I had done in Discord and to you. Nothing even in this cyber and physical world will be safe for me to move on. Rather, I'd leave you alone yet I refuse to move on but I admit of being internet troll, terrorist and outcast all at the same time anyone would blame and react very negatively for me in this deteriorating situation. One false move and then I will be done. Who is to blame or accuse me for this? I have to blame myself for very negative actions and inactions on COTLI Discord channel. I wasn't spared. Even if this is of no use and I have no choice left anymore, in spite of me being banned from COTLI Discord channel website, very unfairly, without any warning nor justice... Discord would now be a toxic atmosphere for me yet the situation goes way too further beyond like this, but I would have to take a break from Discord for good and I would have to distance myself from Discord or social media and spend time with my family until I grow old and die someday in the future, I will talk to, or care no one but to my family and relatives close to me only. And soon forums in Kongegrate will start to collapse, fade and lose luster after radical change after July 22. We don't have much time left. I don't have time anymore to apologize to everyone on Kongegrate and in Discord even if I am cold-hearted, hot-blooded, bad-tempered, hard-headed, dumb and/or thick-faced. Even if Discord website closes down in many years and I would rather feel strage soon. This thread needs to be null and void. This will end soon.

Welcome to my world, pandabear. I still like you.

> *Originally posted by **[TinDragon](/forums/12051/topics/1918793?page=1#13431611)**:* > This is a compliation of your chat in the Discord server the day you were banned: > >  > > Here are the messages you sent me in a private message that same day. (Note that these messages were sent *before* you were banned.) > >  > > This is a preview of the spam you posted in Steam chat after you were banned. > >  > > You were permanently banned for sure, but far from unfairly. > > > What will I do now before Kongegrate makes its radical change this July 22, 2020 or later? > > You probably should have thought about that before you went on your little tirade. isnt this "defamation" when posting it here ?

that would require it to be false which it clearly isn't

It is sealing my fate on Discord channel. I would have become public enemy to COTLI Discord channel once I enter with new account and they would ban me, everytime I do it, I would be banned instantly. This is like terrorists and internet trolls do. This is what censorship does for me. I don't care for anyone but I care for myself. Who cares, again? Congratulations, you guys feel much better now, but not me. I have crossed the line. You guys should mute me because I am always an outcast, an internet troll and a terrorist on Kongregate, even on Discord. No one would forgive me. Nothing would save me from this. No moving on and no going back. I have no heart. You can make fun of or mock me whatever you want. Let my thread be covered with cobwebs. Nothing more. > *Originally posted by **[kljahdfkljhalks](/forums/12051/topics/1918793?page=1#13431614)**:* > inb4 deletion In before the lock... > *Originally posted by **[hofdiddy](/forums/12051/topics/1918793?page=1#13432238)**:* > Welcome to my world, pandabear. > I still like you. I don't know or believe you, but still, you don't know or like or hate me. I don't care. > *Originally posted by **[Noodlebrains](/forums/12051/topics/1918793?page=1#13432093)**:* > Just move on, let it go. If it's something (or even someone) you really care about, you can try and make amends or perhaps give some space for some time. But if it doesn't work out, then move on knowing that you did what you could. Unable to mitigate my situation and there is nothing safe or secure for me to move on or move forward because I crossed the line where anyone can hate me because of too much grievious situation I sustained days ago. There are emotional scars left with me on COTLI Discord channel/website. Just take it seriously. And it's no use. The past will still haunt and curse me forever, but not you and anyone.

You asked to get banned, burned your bridge back, and then misrepresented the situation. You sealed your own fate as you put it.

I'd advise to take some time away from the game and/or Discord. I have taken extended break from games which have taken a mental toll. You do feel refreshed when you come back from a hiatus. Don't be hard on yourself. People make mistakes, and people's tolerances for one's mistake differs. Hence people come and go. Things work out and some things don't. Also we learn from experiences; whether good or bad and life is kinda like a long marathon where we can stumble and pick ourselves up (if we choose to do so).

All this bullshit over a bug! chrono was just trying to point out a potential bug, and everyone jumpled all over him. that's why i say fuck'em and damn'em. stop trying to help people out, they don't appreciate it. just read the top part of this picture, and damn the rest of it. > 

lol, thats one way to spin in

Being able to clarify that something is happening only with your account or with everyone's account is important. No one jumped all over him: They offered a troubleshooting step and said that no one else is experiencing it. OP then got really upset like saying "It's just you" was someone accusing him of lying, or telling him not to report it--which was not the case. (As a lurker on the discord, rather often you see peopel talking about "strange bugs" that frequently turn out to be a result of cheating.... if he's cheating, he could get in trouble if he's reported a "bug" that happened from cheating...) Over all, he's violated like...3 of the discord's 6 rules: he's not being nice, he's being incredibly disrespectful, and he's harassing someone. Also can we please talk about the fact that he's being incredibly dramatic? he's *asking* to be kicked out, sent inflamatory comments to a moderator, THEN complained when he was banned, like he asked to be. Not pictured, by the way, are the other members of the discord server trying to smooth things over, and offer tips for reporting it to the developers, asking questions to try and help figure out his issue. Before he comes back with his "plz kick me" stuff. Also not pictured is the part Where he *left himself*, then *came back* 5 minutes later, then *left again* a minute later, only to return *again* 3 hours later, each time posting more messages asking to be kicked out. o.O

From now on this thread needs to be locked likewise. So be it... > > *Originally posted by **[ColbyWolf](/forums/12051/topics/1918793?page=1#13433453)**:* > Being able to clarify that something is happening only with your account or with everyone's account is important. No one jumped all over him: They offered a troubleshooting step and said that no one else is experiencing it. OP then got really upset like saying "It's just you" was someone accusing him of lying, or telling him not to report it--which was not the case. > > (As a lurker on the discord, rather often you see peopel talking about "strange bugs" that frequently turn out to be a result of cheating.... if he's cheating, he could get in trouble if he's reported a "bug" that happened from cheating...) > > Over all, he's violated like...3 of the discord's 6 rules: he's not being nice, he's being incredibly disrespectful, and he's harassing someone. > > Also can we please talk about the fact that he's being incredibly dramatic? he's *asking* to be kicked out, sent inflamatory comments to a moderator, THEN complained when he was banned, like he asked to be. > > Not pictured, by the way, are the other members of the discord server trying to smooth things over, and offer tips for reporting it to the developers, asking questions to try and help figure out his issue. Before he comes back with his "plz kick me" stuff. > > Also not pictured is the part Where he *left himself*, then *came back* 5 minutes later, then *left again* a minute later, only to return *again* 3 hours later, each time posting more messages asking to be kicked out. o.O Refer to me as the third person in pronoun. God knows He would have to forgive me but not everyone can forgive me; He made Adam and Eve but Satan tempted them. God Himself was so sad to let them run away from Garden Of Eden. And how corrupt I am. God Himself loves me but not everyone loves me. Look, my true colors have been revealed, I did was exploit (not just stalk or lurk) COTLI Discord chat. And you know what? God Himself was not happy with that; His face may not be revealed for now. Exploits have been corrupt nowadays. And time in Kongegrate Forums is running out and it is starting to fall apart slowly. "...concerning His Son Jesus Christ our Lord..." - Romans 1:3-5 NKJV Not only I was just disrespectful; yet, I shall also be cold, cold-hearted, unkind, mean, mad, crazy, angry, hard, hard-headed, stubborn, stupid, crazy, twisted, nonsense, senseless, insensitive, destructive, corrupt, uncaring, vile, cruel, sadistic, violent, sociopathic, psychopathic, unrepentant, remorseless, sinful, spiteful on myself and for myself. And people know what that I am an outcast and hate sink that everyone hates me. So this is my betrayal of trust for you all, especially COTLI people, Vingummi and Erika, and Kong founder Erin & Greg. Nobody will never know me until then... Now I am the public enemy no #1 in COTLI Discord everytime I make a new Discord account to go to COTLI channel. Oh, by the way, it's my fall from grace. Sarcasm. Nothing can be safe from this. I could be critical of anyone on COTLI discord channel and they can also be critical to me as well. You guys can not speak to me but I can speak for myself but not to everyone. Let my thread and post be locked or covered with cobwebs.