if i dont come on much.its cuz im depressed and feeling suicidal.i have been for about 3- 6 months now.i don’t talk about it cuz i might cry.i don’t take shit from people unless its about me. or the army conflicting.
every day my life is crap. with the yelling all the worthless crap(i do say crap alot…..) i love the army that’s why i play war games.that’s why i want to be a cook in the war.im not joking.i would love to support the world.im just not in the training mood . bescause i hav a emotion disorder i think.
my family complains about somthing.like my sister(whos “7”) when they kno im like my mom who hates little kids. I DO DISHES AND CLEAN UP STUFF AND GO TO MY CHICKEN FARM.i cry evvery other time and it kills me.i sometimes cant breathe.i tell my parents andd they dont give one SHIT.i told em: cant i go to the docter ? and we talk. and then i dont go to the dr. but when my sisters sick . she gets to go to the FUCKING DR. IDK WUT TO DO ANYMORE. I HAVE GIVEN ALL MY HOPE TO THEM AND THEY DESREPECT ME.THIS FAMILY….. IS GOING TO FALL APART.i dont understand anymore.i feel like i want to shot my face.i want to put a bullet thu my head. .adleast i hav a shelter and food and someone to look after me. they just dont understand…they just break my my body………they use me.but never love me.or say sorry. or say i thank u for -—- like an exsample :take out the trash.
i want to be a docter or a cook. or an artest or a video Game creater
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 "angeljade")